Grading

Hello blabbers! Just got my past semester results, thank god for all A's and a good pointer. 3.84 ain't bad. Fingers crossed for deans list!

Distant

I have been shutting myself out from the outside world and the outside people for the past month. I am on semester break, and I have a month left, and I think I am gonna continue shutting myself out because it seems less stressful and I am actually enjoying my time out from the outside world. 

But the thing that is bothering me so much right now is the fact that I am getting distant with one of my guy friend whom I am really comfortable with. I just feel so empty. It feels weird. Maybe it's just me.

Semester break have been fun. I like it when I get to spend all of my time with my family and relatives. I am just happier whenever I am around them and family time always matters to me most. It's like my number one thing in life. So so so blessed to be living my life with the people I love.

Love at times

In life, you will find yourself being alone and longing for someone's love at times. Is that someone the person you are currently talking to and seeing every day? Or is that someone a person who used to be a part of your life, but now is a complete stranger?

Love is not something that can be forced. It will eventually come naturally to everyone. The only thing the makes it different for everyone is time, and the person you are in love with. You cannot question love.

Love is a beautiful thing, but some people try to let people know and try to convince them to think that it is actually not. Love does not only happen between two people who are fond of each other; eg: a man and a woman; but love also exists among family members and close friends. People who think otherwise are just confused and they don't know what is the true meaning of love and how it can exist in individuals.

So love endlessly, and give out good vibes to the people you love who are around you. Don't ever take them or their love for you for granted. Show them your love instead. These little things that you do can make their day and assure them that you care and love them.

Happy New Year 2015

Happy New Year! I must say that I am excited to start a new beginning of my life. 2014 was a wonderful year, but it has left me with a big scar from the few things that has happened. Looking forward to a new year with all my loved ones. 

I'll be back in college in 10 days, and I can't wait. I feel like this semester break is the longest one I have had so far (not complaining tho, so grateful for the time off)

I promise, and I'll try to keep my blog alive, as my schedule for the coming three months is not as packed. Till then xoxo

RIP Anne

Yes, I lost someone I really love 5 months back, and it is to why I actually stopped blogging. I never had the courage to write something up. I always find myself just looking at the screen, not knowing if I should write, and end up just closing the page down. 

I did not want to write about my brother's passing, and that is also the reason why I find it hard to blog. I just had the urge to write about it, but I don't want to as I was still mourning over his death, and I would break down into tears whenever I think of it.

Losing two people I love in a year was just devastating. It is affecting me mentally. I cannot sleep at night, fearful of what might happen while I sleep. The reason to this is because both my grandfather and brother's death happened while I was asleep. My brother, yes, he passed on while I was asleep, but my grandfather, I dreamt of him passing on the night before in my sleep. Yes, that is why it is hard for me to sleep now. I just kept on thinking of what could happen if I sleep,

I am afraid that it might happen again. I cannot bear the thought of losing anyone else.

I love you. Rest In Peace, R Anne

Semester 5

Not knowing how fast time has flown by, I am already in the 8th week of my semester five. Of course being typical me, I don't update or blog or write that much if I don't feel like it. There is just a random day where I would feel like blogging, and that day is today.

I have gone through five semesters, and not once have I regretted of the choice I made of choosing the course and college I am currently enrolled in now. The people I have met throughout the past five semesters are people I am trully blessed to have got to know them. Everyone is friendly, everyone is nice. It feels like I do belong there, and I am meant to be where I am studying now.

Only now I'm realizing that it is almost coming to an end. I would have to face the stuff I hate the most once again. The dreadfullness of having to leave something I really love, as to not wanting to but having to leave. In this case, of course, graduating. It feels like two years is not enough, and if it is longer than that, I wouldnt even mind. You just don't give a damn about a thing when you really like and love how these stuff go on in your life. It just blends on in your life, and it is a part of your daily schedule, and that is it.

Is It Love

Always, always, I fall in love with two guys at the same time. And not knowing which one I love more and which one I should choose. So why does this always happen? What are the reasons? Why can't I just love one guy at a time and be happy with it that I actually know who to love and who to be with. Why must it be complicated?